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I am pretty happy with myself right now.  I have not really been an active DIY’er for quite some time.  Raising kids, helping with grandkids.  Going back to college and starting a Photography business have made life kind of hectic.  But recently I decided to start redecorating our house from top to bottom and I decided to start with my daughters room.  After scouring Pinterest for what seemed like forever and pinning a ton of stuff I felt ready to dip my toe back in the water.  This is my first project and I think it turned out pretty well.  

Everyone who sees it in person says it looks awesome and like something from an expensive store.  We got the dresser at Ikea one of my favorite stores and the rest is history. It took me about a week to complete the whole thing and let it all dry.  I would have never gotten the ideas if not for Pinterest.  I am glad I took the leap and tried something I used to enjoy.  I hope to put up more of my projects in the future.  For now I was just so excited that I wanted to quickly share this.

Still Got It!

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So, I thought I had things together.  I felt like I was getting the hang of this being a student thing and going to college at my age.  I was sure that I had a handle on the whole thing.  Then today happened, the day that things fell apart.  I missed turning in an assignment on time today, and since you are not allowed to submit assignments late, I will be getting a zero.

I am beyond upset with myself and I know I shouldn’t be so hard on me.  Life is pretty tough as it is, so it doesn’t do to beat up on yourself, and yet I do it all the time.  I have no one to blame but myself.  Sure I could blame the grandkids for getting sick, needing me to take care of them and than making me, and hubby sick.  Hubby is much sicker than I am so I think I did ok on this point.

I could blame my crazy schedule or any number of things.  But the truth is I messed up, and I have to accept that and move on.  Not sit here and brood about it for a couple of days and make myself feel worse.   I thought I had my time management down but now I have to re-think that.  My creativity was not flowing like I like and it took me awhile to come up with a good idea.

I still have 29 months left in school and I hope to not miss another assignment in that time.  Even more importantly I hope that I learn how to manage my time more effectively so that I am able to keep up with everything.  I am not used to being nice to myself and I am horrible at getting bad grades.  This journey is turning out to be harder than I thought it would be, but there is no way I am going to quit.  So stick around cause it’s going to be a bumpy ride, but together we can make it to the end.

Please leave me any comments or suggestions you have to help make bearable below.

Questioning

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So today I am questioning just how creative I am, or am not.  People have told me I am creative and somedays I believe that.  There are days however, when I am not so sure.  Those days where you can’t get a thought to come to your mind.  Or when all you can think about it is that donut you want to eat but shouldn’t.  I have been having one of those days.  I feel so stressed out I just want to pull my hair out, which would just scare my Rico so I guess that’s out.

I have to do another video for class.  I have known this was coming, almost since I started the class.  I promised myself I would not let it sneak up on me and I would have my idea ready and not be panicking at the last minute.  What’s that saying about the best laid plans.  It’s time for me to put my ideas on paper and I am stuck.  How did I let this happen?

All I know is that I will have to imagine every good thing anyone has every told me.  Focus on my so called creativity and stop questioning myself and my abilities  to get this one done.  It’s going to get harder from here I know.  So baby steps, and all night session are in order.  Stay tuned to see what I come up with.

My first video for school

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So I finally got my first video done.  I wasn’t sure what to do at first and I went through a few ideas.  I enjoyed the work this week of learning all the positions on a film crew.  Our video was to be of the position that we felt we would be good at.  Here it is the good, bad and ugly of my first video.  It’s not much but you gotta start somewhere.

Script Supervisor Please!

I Wanna Be a Cool Kid

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It’s sad to admit that at the age of 42.  Yes I said it and I am proud of it.  But it’s sad to admit that I want to be a cool kid.  I want to feel like I belong to that group of people who are doing neat things with their lives and their blogs.  I wanna be exciting or the person that people like to listen to or laugh with.  I want to walk in the room or be online and know lots of people.  I want those things I really do but I’m not that person.

I am the person who walks in the room and is so awkward and shy I don’t really know how to start up a conversation.  I am the person who really doesn’t know how to take compliments because I have a lot of self doubt.   I thought by now I would have gotten over these feelings.  By this time in my life I feel like I shouldn’t want to be a cool kid anymore.

I’m talking about this today because I am wondering………  If I feel like this at my age, do we all still feel those same things we did back in middle school?  I don’t know but I would love to hear how you feel, leave me a comment and tell me what you think.

School is Hard

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I have only been back in school for a month and a half.  I was excited when it started, glad to be doing something and learning again.  My first class went ok.  I got a final grade of an A even though I think my 98 should have been a 100.  But now half way through my second course I am having a hard time.  I’m not sure if it’s me, the subject, or the assignments.  I think it’s the assignments, I really don’t like them and find myself dragging my feet on doing them.

I didn’t think this was going to be a walk in the park, I really didn’t.  I also wasn’t expecting it to be so darn hard either.  I have got to find a way to get through this class.  I’m sure not feeling well is not helping my motivation at all.  So I have a question for my two readers out there.  What do you do to stay motivated?  If you have any ideas or suggestions for me I would love to hear them.  Thanks in advance.  TT

Joy

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Today was a great day.  I spent some time just looking at her.  Watching her discover the world.  It’s like having a second chance at living life over again.  It’s about that smile that lights up her face.  The hugs that lighten your heart.  The tiny kisses that make all your troubles float away.  It’s a joy that I can’t really describe.  It’s my life as a Grandmother, and I wouldn’t trade it for all the world.

180 Lounge

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Living in Orlando but having grown up in Washington, DC I am always fascinated by how Orlando wants to be a big city but really isn’t.

I received an invitation to a birthday party at the 180 Grey Goose Lounge in the new Amway Center and decided that I should really attend.  One to celebrate with my friend and two to check out the place.  So I got a few of my friends together and we got dressed up and headed for downtown Orlando.  We weren’t sure what to expect so we were pretty excited as we walked over.

One of the first things I noticed were the heaters they had set up for those waiting in line. Our invite had said to go past the line and say we were on the list.  I know how to follow instructions so we casually walked over and waited to get to the rope.  While we were waiting to be acknowledged I had the chance to watch a young, cute lady try to cut the line.  It didn’t work but I enjoyed watching it.  After about five minutes we were at the rope and about to go in to see what all the hype was, WRONG.

The gentlemen wasted no time informing us that our hosts guest list had closed at 11:00.  It was now 12:30 pm and we were shocked to say the least.  Then this same young man told us that we would have to go the end of the regular line and wait if we wanted to go in.  Right after telling us that he let another group in who’s host list apparently didn’t close at 11 pm.  Half of my group at this point wanted to just go home but some of us wanted to stay to say Happy Birthday.  So off we went to go get in line and wait, and wait and wait.

We actually stood there thirty minutes waiting to get into this place.  Just as we got to the rope we see the Birthday Girl headed for the door.  And in that moment we had that feeling that after all the waiting we had done we were going to miss her because her and her friends were leaving.  Turns out she wasn’t leaving but trying to get us and some other friends of her’s in.    Finally we were past the rope and on our way into the elevator and to the lounge.

As the elevator doors opened the first thing I noticed was the all white decor.  I am always impressed by all white decor so I had to give them a thumbs up for that.  We went further into the lounge and noticed that the place was packed.  The music was loud and the drinks were flowing but my group was really not feeling it.

I was glad to be there for my friend, and celebrate her birthday with her.  As for the Lounge, I don’t think my friends will ever go back and I am still on the fence.  I may give it another try, and I may not.  One thing I know is that I thought I had finally found an upscale lounge in this town where me and my friends could hang out.  Instead I felt like I was at any other club in Orlando with music so loud you can’t have a conversation and drinks way too expensive.

For anyone over the age of say twenty, looking for an adult place to hang out I am not so sure that this was it.  But at least there was no cover charge.  I think that would have really put me over the edge.

My Rico

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I love my poodle Rico.  I never thought I would be writing such words but there I said it out loud.  I am a cat lover always have been.  When I was young I had a Siamese Cat named Chocolate.  I loved my cat so much even though my Mom say’s he made me sick.  I guess I have chosen to forget that because I mean who really wants to remember that their favorite pet made it hard for them to breathe.  As time has gone on my allergies have gotten worse and I can no longer live with cats or visit a house with them too long.

Fast forward to a year and a half ago and Rico came into my life.  I have never been much of a dog person and wasn’t really sure that I wanted a dog.  I did know that I wanted a pet and I am just really not the bird, lizard, hamster, snake kinda girl.  I am a dog girl.  Look at that face and tell you wouldn’t be too!

Cleaning House

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As the new year begins I feel the need to clean house.  I know most people like to wait till spring but I am not like most people so I start in January.  I get into that mode where all I want to do is get rid of the old and make way for something new.

This year I am focusing on my house in total.  We have lived in it for six years and it looks a lot like it did when we moved in and I am bored.  So I woke up on New Year’s Day and decided it was time to clean house and make it look new and fresh.

All my children think I am a little crazy, but I’m not.  Just taking care of things I have been letting go to long.  And this cleaning is going to include more than just the house.  It is going to extend to other areas of my life as well. Including my business which I am cleaning up and moving into a new direction.

As this month progresses let the cleaning begin………